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  "description": "by Danielle Huggins  |  Up. Down. Up. Down.",
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  "textContent": "Up. Down. Up. Down. Ups fine. Ups great. But down. Down awful. Bed bound. So sleepy. Crave junk. Crave death. My meds. So many. So simple. Just swallow. But Jay. But Mom. But Kate. A mommy in bed beats a mommy who’s dead. Down long. Weeks. Months. Years. Then up. No sleep. Talk. Talk. Talk. Write. Write. Write. Gym. Sex. Laugh. Shop. Now down. Fuck. This. Disease. Crave balance.\n\n* * *\n\n**Danielle Huggins** lives in New Jersey and has been published in _The Washington Post_ , _Mutha Magazine_ , and _GO Magazine_. She has been featured on the _Writing Class Radio_ podcast four times and is working on a memoir. She loves to box and watch her hometown football team, the Pittsburgh Steelers. Her TikTok channel is @bipolardanielle and her Facebook page is _My Life as a Bipolar Mom_.\n\nThis essay is a _Short Reads_ original.\n\n* * *\n\n### **From the archive**\n\n\nAug 21, 2024\n“Distance”\nby Jill Talbot | How to get going and stay gone.\n\nAug 23, 2023\n“notes from the underground”\nby Melissa Matthewson | Start with the word.\n\nShare this on: Twitter | Facebook | LinkedIn | Bluesky\n\nThis issue of __Short Reads__ was ⬆️ edited by Hattie Fletcher; ⬇️ fact-checked and proofread by Chad Vogler; ⬆️ designed by Anna Hall; and ⬇️ delivered to our 2,244 subscribers by Stephen Knezovich.\n\n****Miss an issue?**** Every  __Short Reads__ essay is available on short-reads.org.\n****Want more like this?**** Subscribe to __Short Reads__ and get one fresh flash essay—for free—in your inbox every Wednesday. Or become a supporting subscriber and help us pay writers.",
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