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  "description": "If you're a man, you might wonder at how much the women in your life give of themselves so that men like you and I might feel even a little of how rich this moment, this life, is.",
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  "publishedAt": "2026-05-12T19:28:25.000Z",
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  "textContent": "_Apprenticeship to Love: The crooked path of marriage (May 13, 2026)_\n\n### TODAY'S MEDITATION\n\nSometimes in these spring days strange things emerge from the darkness of the soil. This is one of these days.\n\n...\n\nA man sends me a morning message. He asks me to think about him while he goes to court to fight the woman he loves for custody of their child.\n\nAnother man is surrounded by rumours and, in stillness and silence, struggles to know if he is needed, valued, seen.\n\n...\n\nThe blue of the sky is obscured by clouds and a heaviness sits over us. There is a feeling of churn, of change for the sake of change without reason. I'm feeling unsettled.\n\nAnd then this, these words by a teacher who inspires me. I quote her at length because, if you're a woman, you might feel something that you need. If you're a man, you might wonder at how much the women in your life give of themselves so that men like you and I might feel even a little of how rich this moment, this life, is.\n\n...\n\nI need to break my heart open, to feel what the women I love are yearning for. This —whether it comes from my granddaughters, my daughters, my mother or sister, and especially from the woman I love– this is how I am nourished. And all the strangeness of this day is something to be held and felt and known as love. Even when it confuses and unsettles me. Especially when it confuses and unsettles me.\n\n...\n\n_If you are here, I know you are a woman who feels deeply._\n\n_You are attuned to the mystery alive in all things\nand you ache to live closer to that power._\n\n_and yet sometimes the intensity of that ache…\ninside the wild unknown of all that is…\ncan be so overwhelming_\n\n _that you find yourself drifting to the surface of things.\nwhere it feels safer. easier. more manageable._\n\n_but you were never meant for “manageable”._\n\n_You don't want even-keeled!\nYou don't want safe!_\n\n_You want poetry.\nMeaning.\nFeeling.\nAliveness.\nYou want the kind of love that opens your body,\nyour heart,\nyour perceptions.\na love that rearranges your life,\nand clears away all that isn't true._\n\n_You want to taste every drop of this existence…\nthe ache and the beauty,\nthe dark and the holy,\nthe raw pulse of your erotic, emotional, embodied aliveness._\n\n_And somewhere in your being, you know:_\n\n_Your longing is not a flaw._\n\n_It is the doorway._\n\n_The very ache you carry…\nfor depth, intimacy, union…\nis not a problem to fix.\nIt is the pulse of Love moving through you, inviting you deeper in._\n~ Nina Lombardo\n\n### TODAY'S INSPIRATIONS\n\n🌀The goal of Bhakti yoga (the yoga of devotion) is to know god as the essence within ourselves and our true self always with god. (Anon)\n\n🌀The Conscious Warrior practices the cultivation of wonder and awe. (John Wineland)\n\n🌀You're not like that now. (My beloved, my oracle)",
  "title": "HER YEARNING NOURISHES ME",
  "updatedAt": "2026-05-12T19:28:25.493Z"
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