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  "description": "How Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire shaped me as a teenager. ",
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  "publishedAt": "2026-05-11T10:00:28.000Z",
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    "Dan Cole",
    "Darryl Dash",
    "Lisan Bradshaw",
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  "textContent": "📚\n\nFresh Wind, Fresh Fire by Jim Cymbala\n\nThroughout the month of May, I’ve asked our TMC writers to share a few thoughts on great books that have shaped them at a pivotal moment in their lives. As a book junkie, I’ve enjoyed reading what they have written, and several of you have reached out to express your thanks.\n\nIt's interesting how different book styles affect us in different ways. For my new Marine friend, Dan Cole, it was _The New Man, An Exposition of Chapter 6_ by D.M. Lloyd-Jones. For my pastor friend, Darryl Dash, it was _The Heart of a Servant Leader: Letters from Jack Miller_ by C. John Miller. And for my friend Lisan Bradshaw, it was _The Story of Reality_ by Gregory Koukl.\n\nAs a full-time writer, I stop in bookstores everywhere I go—sometimes to see if books I've edited are on the shelves, but other times to see what I’m missing. _What latest and greatest titles should I add to my Kindle library?_\n\nRecently, my family was in the UK, and one of my highlights of the trip was a stop at Blackwell’s Bookshop in Oxford. It is renowned for the Norrington Room, which holds the Guinness World Record for the largest single room selling books. Opened in 1966, this underground room contains over three miles of shelving.\n\nMy view of Blackwell’s Bookshop in Oxford\n\nTaking a few minutes to explore this space reminded me of the many different authors who have impacted me over the past two decades. Many for a season.\n\nThere was a time when I was big into apologetics, and so I devoured everything by authors like William Lane Craig. During my senior year of college, I wanted to know what it meant to be a leader, so I read all things leadership by people like John Maxwell. And when I pastored, I leaned heavily on writers like Timothy Keller.\n\nOne of the most formative books of my teenage years was Jim Cymbala's _Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire_. Using stories from his church congregation, the Brooklyn Tabernacle, Cymbala argues that true spiritual transformation comes not through programs or human effort, but through wholehearted seeking of God.\n\n💡\n\nYou can support TMC for $4.99 a month, $14.99 a month, or make a one-time donation.\n\n## A Troubling Thought\n\nAs I rescanned _Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire_ in preparation for this post, I noticed several quotes I'd underlined:\n\n  * “The more we pray, the more we sense our need to pray. The more we sense a need to pray, the more we _want_ to pray.”[1]\n  * “Jesus is not terribly impressed with religious commercialism. He is concerned not only _whether_ we're doing God's work, but also _how_ and _why_ we're doing.”[2]\n  * “Trouble is one of God's great servants because it reminds us how much we continually need the Lord.”[3]\n\n\n\nOne of the lines that continues to resonate to this day is found on page 23, where Cymbala writes,\n\n> I despaired at the thought that my life might slip by without seeing God show himself mightily on our behalf.[4]\n\nLooking back, I can see there are ways I prayed that quote too selfishly. Part of me wanted to see God work in my life out of a sense of ego. I wanted to see him bless my ministry, my goals, my agenda.\n\nNow I would look at this quote a little differently. **I do not have this obsessive urge that God would bless my plans, but I do have a persistent desire that he would show his power in the lives of me, my family, and my friends.**\n\nThat he would place us in situations that force us to depend more on him. That my kids would grow up and know God is real, not just because they believe in him conceptionally, but because they have encountered him experientially.\n\n## The Bent Toward Self-Reliance\n\nOne of my favorite YouTube channels is Mr. Self Reliance, a guy who got tired of corporate life in Toronto and moved north of the city to the woods. While I enjoy watching him build log cabins and live off the land, I’m also aware that his channel's title is misleading.\n\nNo one is truly self-reliant. But each day, I'm consciously aware of my natural bent towards this self-reliant behavior.\n\n  * _Why do I need to pray if I can just fix my problems myself?_\n  * _Why ask for God's blessing on my career if I can just work harder and make more money?_\n  * _Why seek God's blessing on my family if I can just take them on a vacation?_\n  * _Why do I need God's blessing on my marriage if I am kind to my wife?_\n\n\n\nIt's the wisdom from authors like Jim Cymbala that reminds me to do everything I can to live in a daily rhythm of God-reliance.\n\nOne of the quotes from Cymbala that I dislike (even if I can't deny its accuracy) is when he notes, “Prayer cannot truly be taught by principles and seminars and symposiums. It has to be born out of a whole environment of felt need. If I say, 'I _ought_ to pray,' I will soon run out of motivation and quit; the flesh is too strong. I have to be driven to pray.\"[5]\n\nHere's why that quote creates some conflict in me.\n\nI feel like our love for God is so strong that it should compel us to seek him, regardless of our circumstances. But I can't deny the reality that the environment we’re in plays a greater role than most of us would like. That's why, **in an era of comfort and abundance, it's important that we, as Christians, place ourselves in positions where our reliance on God can grow.**\n\nOne practical way to do this is to shift the way we pray. Less praying about comfort enhancement and more about character transformation. Less obsessing over God to increase our wealth, and more desiring him to increase our dependence. Fewer requests that God would make everything smooth for our kids, and more requests that he would lead them into situations that would show them their need for him.\n\nWithout God, no matter how good life is, we have every reason to despair. With him, no matter how bad life is, we have everything we need.\n\n## Sign up for The Monday Christian\n\nTurning Sunday Belief Into Monday Action\n\nSubscribe\n\nEmail sent! Check your inbox to complete your signup.\n\nNo spam. Unsubscribe anytime.\n\n* * *\n\n[1] Jim Cymbala, _Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire: What Happens When God’s Spirit Invades the Hearts of His People_ (Grand Rapids, MI: Zondervan, 2001), 50.\n\n[2] Ibid, 69.\n\n[3] Ibid, 57-58.\n\n[4] Ibid, 23.\n\n[5] Ibid, 49.",
  "title": "A Thought That Leads to Despair",
  "updatedAt": "2026-05-11T10:00:28.958Z"
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