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  "description": "The parts we put away are the parts we need the most.",
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  "textContent": "I look in the mirror and I see the face of a man in his midlife, a face that isn’t mine. Wrinkles around the eyes. Gray mixed in the hair and the beard. The eyes are the same, though, eyes that I’ve looked into a thousand times. Through those eyes I can see me. I recognize the face as mine, but I don’t recognize the age as mine. Age is like a shell that tells the world I am something other than I am. There are days where I feel like age is a costume, and I’m flopping around in too big pants and too big shoes, and other days I feel like the face in the mirror is truly mine, and I remember each grey hair and each wrinkle.\n\nAdulthood just happens. Childhood runs out, the easy yellow sunrise of early life slowly giving way to the late morning of adolescence. We feast in our teens, the mind of a child inside the body of an adult, the world in front of us, a buffet of choice. We ignore the nagging feeling that lunch is coming to an end, and that _then_ we will have to make it on our own. Eventually we are thrust into the bright light of the rest of our lives. There is no test to pass, no chance to be held back if we aren’t quite ready.\n\nBehind the mask of the middle-aged man is a child. The same child that was afraid of bees and spiders, that thought Jaws was real, that imagined his bicycle was a motorcycle. He shows up often, carrying all of his fears on his back, his head full of dreams. And behind the mask there is also a man. His hands are calloused, his sleeves rolled up, his eyes are steely and confident. He knows the fears aren’t real, but he knows the dreams aren’t real, either. These two are companions: the man driving and deciding and the child tugging on his shirt sleeves and pointing out the window at the trees and the cows and life outside.\n\nWhether we are ready when adulthood arrives, jaw set and feet planted, or we are still chasing tadpoles and skipping stones, life holds the same expectations for both. Rent has to be paid. Food has to be eaten. The machinery of modern life must be operated. We find a place to put our feet and we push. We learn to pedal.\n\nThe child doesn’t like to pedal. At first, he does - he’s delighted by the machinery, bright eyes following the parts and pieces, eager smile lighting up his face. But quickly he tires of the monotony. The man has to take over. You see, the man and the child were once the same, and it’s the world that forces them apart, for someone must dream and someone must not. The man pedals, and pays rent, and buys food. The boy bounces around, dreaming and talking. The boy finds other machines, and runs back to tell the man. Sometimes they agree to take over the new machine, and other times the man stares straight ahead while the boy flits around him, talking of a machine they will never see together. The man pedals, turning the wheel faster and faster, though the pedals and the wheel get heavier with time. In his focus and his strain, he finds that he can no longer listen to the boy without losing his pace. The boy sees things he wants to share, and waves his hands and yells louder, but the man can no longer hear him. He’s gotten very good at pedaling.\n\nBy the peak of the afternoon, the machinery becomes part of life, like walking and breathing. Life grows around it, like a tree next to a fence. We find others around us. Some we know for fleeting moments, briefly sharing the work of pedaling. Others we find community in, we find they make the job easier. And for fewer still, we find something that holds. Our faces grow older, but the parts inside of us don’t notice.\n\nWhen the boy and the man were still one, they met a girl who carried a woman inside of her. They played together, darting in and out and in between the machinery of life, always finding one another again. The man and woman would one day come to love each other, too. Pedaling side-by-side, they work wordlessly, almost effortlessly some days, like one mind with two bodies. Other days they bump into each other and step on each other’s toes. But that’s not the real story - no, the real story is of the boy and girl. The boy and girl were a blur together. They danced and skipped, flitting to each new thing, bright and animated, laughing and twirling. They came as a pair, excitedly describing the world they saw to the man and the woman. And then, only then, was there a break in the determination of the man and the woman - a glint of recognition, a brief dancing light in the eyes.\n\nAs the shadows of the late afternoon grow longer, we stiffen into the task at hand, seeing only the impending evening, and then the pitch black of night beyond it.\n\nThe man turns the wheel, and the boy gets louder. He turns his own wheel, the wheel of imagination, plucking ideas out and working them into dreams, and showing them to the man. The man pedals, eyes straight ahead. The boy puts the dreams away, but occasionally he pulls them out again and works them into finer and finer detail. He shows them to the man, but the man is determined in his task. But the girl notices. She bounces around the boy and his dreams, wide-eyed, pointing and asking questions. And when the boy explains, she listens, her body barely containing her excitement. When he finishes, she yelps a celebration, arms to the sky, and hugs the boy. The man notices. He sees the girl first, the one he fell in love with. Lingering on the moment, his grim mask cracks into a smile, his eyes wrinkling in recognition. He follows the girl’s gaze, first to the boy, and then to the dreams at the boy’s feet, noticing them for the first time. He calls the boy over, and the man and the boy talk, the dreams on the ground between them. The man pedals, and the boy tells the man what the dreams are about, and the man tells the boy where they are broken, where they need work. And eventually, they have a new machine, a machine made of dreams _and_ reality. And the boy looks proudly at the machine, his back straighter, hands on his hips and elbows thrust out. And the man looks proudly at the boy.\n\n100% human written",
  "title": "The Finding",
  "updatedAt": "2026-06-09T20:34:58.080Z"
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