I felt awful

Work went very slowly I was basically catatonic with anxiety after work. Rachel and I were able to talk about it and it was somewhat helpful and it lifted my spirits. Basically, the wedding planning is applying pressure that we need to manage better AND work is really dragging me down. Talked to my sister and Jami about our visit to Ohio. We have general day by day plans, which is really good… …but then I talked to my parents about our visit and they were annoyed that I had plans at all AND they are flying in at the worst possible times and will basically avoid Rachel’s parents until the party AND they want to stay in Akron instead of Cleveland for reasons beyond me. The whole thing pisses me off, frankly, as we communicated what days we were traveling and the intention of this trip months ago, but they seemed to have tuned that out and decided to do their own thing. Furthermore, because I spoke to them last, we made plans with Rachel’s family that involved them that we had to adjust because they hadn’t communicated travel dates. This is yet another in a long line of instances where my dad has decided to be selfish and do whatever the fuck he wants. These discussions added more anxiety and I couldn’t sleep.