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  "description": "Every Load Deserves a Place",
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  "publishedAt": "2026-03-18T08:24:00.000Z",
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  "textContent": "> **Holemates** returns this June for a second series with the boys, and I’m excited to re-release series one in the lead-up over the next few months.\n\n* * *\n\nSubscribe now\n\n## **🏡 _Holemates_**\n\n _A Queer Serial About Use, Longing, and the Boys Who Stay Anyway_\n\n> There’s a home in the city.\n> Three bedrooms. Four boys. No doors that lock.\n\nNo one remembers exactly how it started.\n**_Jet_** showed up with snacks and lube.\n**_Wes_** never left after the second blowjob.\n**_Rafe_** started filming the moment he moved in.\nAnd **_Daz_** —\nWell. Daz was already on his knees when they found him.\n\nThey call it a house, but it’s more of a habitat. A place where affection is handed out with condoms. Where praise sounds like _good boy_ , and love feels like someone leaving a towel on the sink.\n\nThey fuck.\nA lot.\nBut this isn’t porn.\n\nIt’s mess. It’s ritual. It’s need, carved out in sweat and silence.\nIt’s about the moments after.\nThe breath. The cleanup. The ache.\n\nIt’s about family… _chosen._\n\n# **Every Load Deserves a Place**\n\n## Chapter One\n\n**Daz is the one they go to when they’re too tired to pretend.**\nHe doesn’t flinch. Doesn’t moan unless you want him to. Doesn’t ask to be held.\n\nJust opens.\n\nHis mouth. His legs. His eyes, blank, waiting, beautiful in the way empty things sometimes are.\n\nHe grew up in a regional town where silence meant safety and usefulness was a form of survival. So he learned to give before anyone asked. To kneel before being told. To smile while being used.\n\nNow he lives in the city. Same silence. Different floor tiles.\n\nOnline, he’s infamous, his videos clipped, looped, captioned:\n\n> _“Just how they like me.”_\n\nOffline, he scrubs grout more than he speaks. Avoids mirrors. Washes his hands but not his back. Because if you rinse off too much, you might lose what they came for.\n\nAnd yet… something lingers.\n\nWhen Wes asks, _“Is this okay?”_\nWhen Rafe pauses the tape at the moment his mouth opens, then closes again…\nWhen someone leaves a towel on the sink just for him…\nHe starts to wonder if there’s something worse than being used.\n\n**_Being seen._**\n\n* * *\n\n### **Used**\n\nThe floor was wet.\nNot puddled. Not dramatic. Just a film of damp that soaked through the knees before you noticed. Daz noticed. He always did. But he didn’t move.\n\nThe stall door didn’t creak, it banged. A hand hit the lock behind him, quick, rough. The click echoed.\n\nBoots stopped behind his bare thighs.\nA zipper.\nNo greeting. No warning.\nHe opened his mouth.\n\nIt was muscle memory now. Parted lips, tongue flat. Chin tilted up just enough to angle the drip. He’d learned that the first time someone came too fast and called it his fault. Don’t choke. Don’t blink. Just let it land.\n\nThe man groaned, short and sharp like he’d just finished a sprint.\nDaz didn’t look up. He didn’t care what the guy looked like. They were all some shade of sweaty. Some version of grateful.\n\nA hand gripped the back of his head, not harsh but definitely not tender… Just firm. Like someone palming a melon at the market.\n\nThe first spurt hit his tongue. Salty. Fast.\nHe didn’t flinch. He didn’t moan. That wasn’t part of the job.\n\nAnother drip. Another breath. Then the man stepped back.\n\nNo words. Just the quiet sound of a zipper going up. Then retreating boots. A second later, the door opened again.\n\nDaz stayed on his knees.\nWaiting.\n\nHe licked his bottom lip. Not for the taste. Just to make sure it was all gone.\n\nThe second man laughed as he entered.\n\n“Fuck,” he said, seeing Daz still kneeling. “He’s already warmed up.”\n\nHe unbuckled lazily, like this wasn’t his first time using someone else’s leftovers. The smell of smoke clung to his hoodie. He tasted like vodka when he shoved his fingers past Daz’s lips, testing him, maybe. Seeing if the hole was still good.\n\nDaz sucked because he was supposed to.\n\n“You’re quiet,” the man said, palming the back of his head. “I like that.”\n\nHe twisted Daz’s face toward the wall, bent over him, and shoved in fast. Daz didn’t flinch. His body opened as it always did. Automatically. Like a lock remembering the shape of the key.\n\nThe slap of hips was brutal, rhythmic. One hand pulled Daz’s head back so he couldn’t rest it on his arms. Just had to stay there, dangling, mouth parted, eyes half-closed.\n\n“You were made for this,” the man panted.\n\nAnd something in Daz twitched. Not his cock. That was soft, buried against wet tile. Something in his chest. Some fucked-up little nerve that still believed praise meant something.\n\nHe wanted to cry. Scream... Or kiss him.\n\nInstead, he whispered, “Thank you.”\n\nThe man groaned and pulled out, finishing across Daz’s back like he was spraying down a sidewalk.\n\n“Good boy,” he said.\n\nIt wasn’t love. But it was close enough.\n\nDaz stayed still, cum cooling on his skin.\n\nBehind him, a phone clicked on. Someone else was filming now.\n\nThe door swung open again. Quick footsteps. A rustle of denim.\n\n“Shit, is he still going?”\n“Just finished.”\n“Damn.”\n\nLaughter. A zipper. Another pair of hands.\nDaz didn’t move.\n\nThe third one didn’t fuck him. Just jerked off watching. Filmed it. Called Daz names in a low, sweet voice like he was reading bedtime stories.\n\n_“That’s it… open wider… fucking nothing, aren’t you?”_\n\nDaz blinked once, very slow. Tried to keep the floor in focus. The shape of the drain cover. The way the water circled, but didn’t go down.\n\nSomeone spat.\nSomeone came.\nThey left together.\n\nOne of them dropped a tenner on the floor next to his knee. Not tucked gently into his palm or pressed into his waistband. Just dropped. Like rubbish.\n\nHe stayed kneeling long after the door shut. His thighs were shaking, back sticky. His jaw ached.\n\nThe silence hit harder than the men ever did.\n\nOutside, a cleaner knocked on the outer wall.\n\n“Almost done in there?”\n\nDaz wiped his mouth with the back of his sleeve. Sat back on his heels.\nStood slowly.\n\nThe mirror above the sink was fogged and filthy.\nHe didn’t check his reflection.\n\nHe opened his phone. Flicked through the video. Brightness too high. Angle slightly off. But the moan caught on tape was perfect.\n\nHe uploaded it anyway. Captioned it:\n\n**“ _Just how they like me._ ”**\n\nThen he washed his hands.\nAnd walked out.\n\n* * *\n\n### **Every Load Deserves a Place.**\n\nThe smell of bleach clung to his hoodie. Daz didn’t mind. It covered everything else.\n\nHe was on his hands and knees again, but this time with a sponge, scrubbing along the edge of the bathtub. The tiles liked to collect dust in the corners, as if even the house was holding things it didn’t want to admit were there.\n\nBehind him, someone moaned. Not loud. Not performative. Just the real, private kind. Low, strained, like trying not to be heard but wanting to be caught anyway.\n\nDaz paused mid-scrub.\nHeld his breath.\n\nA soft thud.\nThen another.\nThe rhythm of a fist on flesh. Not violent. Just hungry.\n\nHe didn’t turn around. Didn’t chase it. That’s how things worked in this house. You didn’t interrupt pleasure. You joined it or you cleaned around it.\n\nA shadow passed. Wes. Shirtless, barefoot, with that quiet puppy tilt to his head. He knelt beside Daz like it was instinct. Grabbed the second sponge. No words. Just presence.\n\nTogether, they cleaned in silence. Wes took the corners. Daz worked the grooves between the tiles.\n\nIt wasn’t submission. Not really. It was… something gentler. Familiar. A ritual.\n\nDaz glanced over. Wes was biting his lip, eyes on the floor.\n\nSomewhere down the hallway, the moaning stopped.\n\nDaz dipped the sponge in fresh water. Squeezed it until it bled.\n\nHe didn’t say thank you. Wes didn’t need it.\nThat’s what made it harder.\n\nJet stumbled into the bathroom with his cock still half-hard and a slice of salami in his mouth. His sweatpants were bunched low, one hand tucked lazily beneath the waistband like he’d forgotten to finish what he started.\n\n“Oh fuck, are we having a cleaning party?” he grinned, chewing.\n\nDaz didn’t look up. Wes flushed pink and busied himself with the grout.\n\nJet leaned against the doorframe, licking his thumb. “You two are such little housewives. Makes me wanna fuck something up, so you can beg me to let you clean it.”\n\nHe looked at Daz. Tilted his head. Bit into the salami like it was a prop.\n\n“Actually, you know what? I’ve got an idea.” He gestured vaguely toward the lounge. “Let’s play a game.”\n\nDaz sat back on his heels. “What kind of game?”\n\nJet’s grin widened. “A test. See who can make you come the fastest. No cocks. Just fingers.”\n\nWes made a soft sound. Not quite a protest. More like surprise that this wasn’t already happening.\n\n“Just for fun,” Jet added. “You love games, right?”\n\nRafe appeared then, like he always did, quiet, barefoot, holding the camera like it was an extension of his body. He didn’t say anything. Just lifted one brow and nodded once toward the hallway.\n\nJet clapped his hands like a kid about to unwrap a present.\n\nDaz stood up slowly. His knees creaked. He didn’t smile, but followed them anyway.\n\nRafe and Jet pushed the couch back. Someone lit one of Jet’s candles, it smelled like vanilla and weed. The lights were low. Rafe adjusted the focus.\n\nDaz knelt in the centre of the room. Palms flat. Back arched. Head down.\n\nThe position wasn’t new. What was new was how quiet it felt.\n\nJet circled him once, cracking his knuckles. “Alright, boys. Rules are simple. No dicks. Just fingers. Make him come. Fastest wins.”\n\nWes hovered at the edge of the room, eyes wide. His hands flexed like he didn’t know what to do with them.\n\nJet crouched behind Daz. Ran a hand down his spine, not gentle but not rough either. Just… claiming.\n\nDaz didn’t move. Didn’t flinch. He knew his role.\n\nRafe’s voice came low: “Start when I say.”\n\nJet licked two fingers dramatically. “Can I get a warm-up?”\n\n“No.” Rafe didn’t even blink.\n\nDaz closed his eyes.\n\n“Rolling,” Rafe said.\n\nJet slid his hand between Daz’s cheeks like he was reaching for something he’d dropped. The first push was too fast, too shallow, too cocky. Daz didn’t react. That was part of the game too.\n\nJet adjusted. Slower. Deeper. Hooked upward. Smirked when Daz finally let out a soft breath.\n\nWes sat down, cross-legged, hands in his lap.\n\nHe didn’t touch.\nHe watched.\n\nAnd somehow, that landed harder.\n\n“Slower,” Rafe said, voice low but precise. “Open him up, don't crack him open.”\n\nJet chuckled but obeyed. Adjusted the angle. Curved his fingers like he was turning a lock.\n\nDaz’s mouth parted. A sound tried to come out, but it stuck behind his teeth. He focused on the floorboards beneath his cheek, one had a scratch shaped like a crescent moon. He counted it. Then started over.\n\nJet leaned closer. “C’mon, baby. Give me something.”\n\nDaz gave what he always gave, silence, slick, space to be used.\n\nFrom the couch, Rafe repositioned slightly. Camera tracking Daz’s face now, not his hole. The red light blinked steadily. Watching. Recording. Witnessing.\n\n“Look at him,” Rafe murmured. “He’s not here.”\n\nJet paused mid-stroke. “What?”\n\n“He’s somewhere else.” Rafe sounded like he wasn’t surprised.\n\nWes shifted. “Should we—”\n\n“No,” Daz said. First word in minutes. Still face-down. Still _still_.\n\nJet resumed. Slower this time. More present. The fingers didn’t fuck, they coaxed. And Daz let them. Not because it felt good. But because it was familiar. The rhythm of being wanted for what he could take, not who he was.\n\nAnd still something crawled up his spine. A slow heat. A pulse. Pleasure, maybe. Or memory. He couldn’t tell the difference anymore.\n\nHis hips started to move. Tiny, involuntary. Jet grinned.\n\n“That’s it,” he whispered. “There you are.”\n\nBut he wasn’t.\nNot really.\n\nHe was back in the toilet twelve months before. Back in the fog.\nThe only difference was the camera had better lighting now.\n\nJet curled his fingers just right and Daz made a sound, quiet, sharp, cut off halfway like he wasn’t sure it was allowed.\n\nWes leaned forward instinctively, his whole body caught in that sound. His hands hovered mid-air, unsure if they were wanted. He looked at Rafe. Rafe didn’t meet his eyes.\n\n“Can I…?” Wes asked no one in particular.\n\nJet glanced back. “Go ahead, Pup.”\n\nWes crawled across the rug, slow and careful like he was approaching a wounded animal. His fingers hovered above Daz’s back, then lowered, not to grope or grab, just to rest. One palm flat between the shoulder blades. Warm.\n\nDaz flinched.\n\nJet froze.\nRafe zoomed in.\n\n“Is this okay?” Wes whispered.\n\nEverything stilled.\n\nThe room went tight around that question, like it didn’t know how to hold it. Daz’s breath hitched. His whole body clenched, but not from the fingers inside him.\n\n“Yeah,” he said, too fast. “Yeah, I’m fine.”\n\nBut his voice was raw. Like the truth had scraped its way out and the lie arrived just in time to patch it over.\n\nJet pulled his hand back slowly. Rafe lowered the camera. Wes didn’t move.\n\nDaz stayed on all fours, head hanging. He wanted to run. He wanted to stay. He wanted to be ruined again just so he wouldn’t have to feel this close.\n\nWes whispered, “Sorry,” like it was a prayer.\n\nAnd Daz hated how much it hurt to be touched _kindly._\n\nJet moved like nothing had happened.\n\n“Alright,” he said, stretching his fingers with a soft pop. “Back in.”\n\nHe didn’t wait for permission. Just pressed two practiced fingers in again. The mood had shifted, but Jet filled the silence like he always did. With motion, noise and pleasure performed.\n\nDaz didn’t stop him.\n\nHe let his body rock into it, hips twitching as Jet curled and stroked and whispered filth like he was reading off a menu. None of it landed. Daz was chasing the finish the way some people chase God: urgently, blindly, needing it more than understanding it.\n\nWes had backed away. He sat cross-legged against the wall, eyes locked on Daz like he was watching a star collapse.\n\nRafe had stopped filming. But the red light blinked on anyway.\n\nJet twisted just right and Daz came.\n\nHard. Silent. Everything tensing at once, back, arms, the tight curl of his toes. No moan. Just a gasp that never made it out of his throat.\n\nJet laughed, triumphant. “Fuck yes.”\n\nRafe leaned back, watching the aftermath like it was art.\nWes didn’t move.\n\nCollapsing onto his elbows, Daz pressed his face into the rug. His breath came fast, but it didn’t feel like relief. It felt like exposure.\n\nHe wiped his cheek with the back of his hand. It came away wet.\n\nNone of them noticed.\n\nJet stood and stretched. “And that, boys, is how you ring the holebell.”\n\nNo one laughed... No one kissed him.\n\n### **Waterfall**\n\nThe shower tiles were cooler than they should’ve been.\n\nDaz sat on the floor, knees pulled up, forehead resting on them. The water beat down steadily, warm but impersonal, like a hand that fucked you without ever touching your face.\n\nHis come had washed away. The lube too. But he kept scrubbing. Under his arms. Behind his knees. Between his fingers.\n\nThere was no music playing, no light but the harsh glow of the single bulb overhead. Steam gathered in the corners like ghosts trying to stay quiet.\n\nHis breath was steady now. He blinked slowly, watching a droplet trail from the tap down the cracked grout. His body was clean. But he didn’t feel finished, he never did.\n\nSomewhere in the distance, someone coughed. Maybe Jet. Maybe Rafe. It didn’t matter.\n\nHe thought about the rug burn on his knees. The scratch on the floorboards shaped like a moon. The way Wes had asked, _“Is this okay?”_ like it mattered.\n\nHe pressed his palm flat against the tiles and whispered, “It’s fine.”\n\nBut the tiles didn’t answer.\n\nOutside the glass, the air moved. A shadow crossed.\n\nA knock, two fingers, soft, barely there.\n\nHe didn’t speak.\n\nThe door cracked open. Steam spilled.\n\nA towel dropped onto the sink edge. Jet’s voice, low and uncharacteristically gentle: “Didn’t wanna leave you wet.”\n\nThen the door closed again.\n\nThe towel sat on the sink, Daz stared at it for a long time. Steam curled along the edges, clinging like it didn’t want to leave either. He hadn’t moved. Still curled beneath the water, skin flushed, bones heavy.\n\nHe reached for it once. Stopped.\n\nAgain. Stopped.\n\nIt wasn’t fear exactly. More like confusion.\nHe was used to finishing alone. To air-drying. To shivering while pretending it made him feel something.\n\nBut the towel was soft, it meant someone had thought about him _after_.\n\nThat was worse than the fucking.\n\nHe shut the water off. Stood slowly. Wrung out his hair by instinct. Watched drops hit the tiles and disappear like they’d never mattered.\n\nThen, finally, he picked up the towel.\n\nHeld it to his chest like it might tell him what to do.\n\nWhen he wrapped it around himself, it felt too much. Too kind. Too close.\n\nBut he didn’t take it off.\n\nHe stepped out of the bathroom, toes curling against the hallway floor. The house was quiet.\n\nHe passed the lounge. The rug was still rumpled.\n\nHe didn’t fix it.\n\nRafe’s door was open just a crack.\n\nDaz didn’t mean to look. Didn’t mean to _pause._\n\nBut he did.\n\nInside, the room glowed blue from the screen. No music. Just the faint click of a keyboard, the quiet flick of pause-play-pause.\n\nRafe sat cross-legged on his bed, laptop open, camera on the desk beside him like a sleeping pet.\n\nThe footage was playing.\n\nDaz saw himself on screen. On all fours. Blank-faced. Back arched. Hole open. Jet grinning behind him. Wes kneeling nearby, hesitant.\n\nAnd then… The moment.\n\nWes asking, _“Is this okay?”_\nDaz flinching.\nHis mouth opening, then snapping shut.\nThat flicker of something across his face, hurt? hope? habit?\n\nRafe paused it. Zoomed in. Watched. Again.\n\nDaz held his breath.\n\nHe could walk away now. Pretend he hadn’t seen. Pretend none of this was happening.\n\nBut he didn’t.\n\nBecause Rafe was watching it like it _mattered._ Like it wasn’t porn. Like it was a scene in a film he didn’t know the ending to.\n\nThe screen stayed paused on Daz’s face.\n\nRafe leaned forward, thumb hovering just under the chin. Not touching. Just… framing.\n\nHe whispered, to no one:\n\n“You weren’t supposed to look like that.”\n\nAnd Daz, wrapped in Jet’s towel, invisible in the hall, felt something bloom and bruise at once.\n\nHe walked away before he could ruin it.\n\nBut the red light on the desk was blinking again.\n\n* * *",
  "title": "Holemates ~ Chapter One",
  "updatedAt": "2026-04-18T23:55:13.636Z"
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